dearie osmonov..

Dear OSMONOV..
From the bottom of our heart..we promise you 100%, we will try our best to impress you..with our knowledge..next semester..it's not accurately fair when u say how poor we were today..we tried our best for today's topic-esophagus..at least most of them did. But, u surprised us with the questions from the previous classes without any prior notice. we are not as smart as u may think, but, it doesnt make us such a dumb either..if only you told us about today, we may be ready to answer ur questions and will not fumble in front of you and make ourself sounded stupid...frustrated indeed, but, u should have accept our case history and act more professionally. we do know you were trying to control your anger from us but that's not a reasonable way for not even go through our case history which took us about 2 days to get it done..sir, fyi, living here is not all about studying.. and i must say its quite ok to have some entertainment..to control our stress and make studying more enjoyable...2 hours reading was not ample enough especially when we were just about to familiarize with it..but, giving so many reasons like us doesnt really help in both ways i guess. so, all i want to say is, please..do understand us..and, try to lower your expectation..we will try our best and stop giving so many nonsense reasons..and, please..dont scold us or use any harsh words..it made us somehow b****ing about you later..and we hate to do so..

p/s: thanks for being patient with us all the while, but today proves that u can be so stern it would made us feel so scared just thinking of you..


sincerely yours,
Group 9

~~hate that i love you..

Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
That’s how much I love you (yeah)
That’s how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I can’t stand ya
Must everything you do
make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile
No..

[Ne-Yo:]
but you won’t let me
You upset me girl
and then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget
that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it

[Rihanna:]
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
Girl, I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (ooh)
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..

[Ne-Yo:]
And you completely know the power that you have
[Hate That I Love You lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

The only one that makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me..

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
That’s how much I love you
How much i need you
That's how much I need you
How much I love you
That’s how much I love you
How much I need you
That's how much i need you
I need you

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate that I love you sooo...
And I hate how much I love you boy (Hey)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I can’t stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...ooh)
But I just can’t let you go (But I just can’t let you go, no)
And I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
And I hate that I love you so.. so..

~~just like the old days..

after several tense months(lah sangat...hehehhe)..eventually, i got the chance to sit with my housemates..raihan, tiha, n amnah..and had some good chattings..like we used to..it's nice to spend some time like this as i havent been around quite some time..i do feel there's some slight changes in me this semester..i just dont feel like going out from my room..my bed is getting cosier..and, my laptop has such an intense influence to me..so, most of the time..i just surf the internet...read the newspaper..watch some movies..browsing thru the frenster..and some medical webs..its like i spend almost half of my day with my lappie and still feel good about it..( previously, i dont even like to use my acer laptop..maybe, because its now toshiba!! huhuhu)....the chatting went on for almost 2 hours..initially, it was just about the pics that we were browsing thru in the friendster..and, progressively we gossiped about the things happening now..(ooppppssss....i still keep some secrets yer...if u read this.. ;-P) we were talking about our personal life...having some laughs and teary eyes..and continued on giving opinions and exchanging some good stories about each other..just like the old days..(as if, i havent seen them like 10 years..heheheh) if we were to be apart some day..undoubtly,we still can go on chatting about anything like we had during the good old days.....so..i'm gonna miss my chatting buddies over here.. ;-)

home or vacation??

its saturday morning..or..afternoon?? hehehe..i just woke up...from my bed..since morning..i've been together with my laptop...lying down lazily..with nothing to worry about..my friend, fatin and i..were having some chat about the coming summer holiday plans...for the next 2 years..i was planning to go to us or other places like japan or korea..i feel like i should spend this time having some fun exploring places and buy one or two things over there..i dont feel like going back home..even this coming summer..i dont think like coming back to malaysia..initially i planned on staying here after the eurotrip..because its just a nick of time before our semester starts..i think its a waste of money if you were about to spend time in malaysia for only a month..but, my friend insist on me coming back home..he says," kesian family..lame tak jumpe.." but, my mother would certainly be delighted if i'm not coming back home..she said,i have to save more for the future..and go travel..but, yesterday, i asked my sibs whether its ok for me to not coming back home this summer..there said no..they want me to come back..they say they miss me a lot..they want to eat my cookings..and, spend some time with me..it was so touching..at home, i'm not the typical maryam u'll see..i'm very strict with my sibs..if they dont behave..i'll cut down their allowance..i even make them clean the house if they are the ones who messed the place..i switched off the tv as i think its not good watching the tv 24/7.. i asked them to learn how to cook eventhough we have a maid..and, if they dont perform, i'll scold them until they cry and sit down doing the homework..but, still..even i'm so strict with them..they still want me to be at home..it was really touching..maybe that's what sibs are..no matter what happened, the love will always be there..and we care too much with each other..if i'm sad..they are the ones that will care for me..last summer, i spend one month in klantan..accompanying my grandmother and grandfather..they were lonely..but, having my presence around, at least they have someone to talk to..but before leaving to klantan..safiyyah(9) asked me.." maryam, kenape kn pg lagi...kan maryam baru sampai jer..safiyah takut rindu kat maryam.." tears started to flow from my eyes..but, all can i say was.."i'll be back home soon".. then when i was leaving for moscow, again, she asked me " maryam, bile balik sini lagi?" i told her..it would be next year..then she said " lamenye...tak boleh ke tak balik..safiyah rindu maryam.." again..her words touched the soft spot in my heart..she was just 5 years old..and yet..the feelings for me were so strong..i still remember..it was about 4 p.m, safiyah just woke up and straight away, she sit in fron of the tv, and watch her cartoon..she loves cartoon so much, almost all of it...even the dragon ball..but, her fav is spongebob sguarepants..btw,i forgot to mention, last night she slept at 3-4 a.m..watching tv also..that made her a total tv addict, aite? so..back to the story..while she lie down attentively watching her fav tv cartoon..i suddenly, took the remote and switch off the tv..she was furious..she cried, and i say..." safiyah, cube kire, brape lame safiyah tengok tv..semalam safiyah tengok sampai pukul 3 pagi..hari ni, bangun, terus tengok lagi..sebab tu, maryam kn tutup tv..ok?" then all of a sudden...she screamed at me.." ni lah yang safiyah tak suke ade kakak!!" stunned..then suddenly i burst out laughing..it was so funny..seeing her tarik muke n merajuk with me..just because of the tv...i ignored her..i want her to know..that, anything u want to do, it should be moderate..then i went straight away to the kitchen, and started to cook dinner...safiyah outside..still sitting and crying..but, what can i do..i dont want to manjekan her...my parents have been pampering her since she is the second youngest after muaz..i dont want her to be spoilt..after finished cooking..i sat down in the living room..then she went to me and said.."maryam, safiyah mintak maaf.."..then we salam..and she kiss me on my cheeks..and, i told her.." kalo nak jadi goodgirl, takleh buat macam tuh..ok? " she noded..and asked me to read some books for her...


that's only one of the numerous stories about her..i used to be like her..that's why..i know how to soften her heart..and, she always claims that she wants to be like me someday..

so..i think..i have to be home this coming summer....i really miss ma sibs a lot..

solution to the unsolved...

i'm gonna list down ere what i think should be done to ease this bomb ticking phenomenone:
1. back to practise Islam the right way...( mengadu dengan Allah..sebaik-baik pertolongan hanyalah dari-Nya..)
2. control ur emotions..dont let the satan mislead you..-istighfar banyak2..
3. everyone should have a strong supportive unit..so that, if anything happens, they are the ones who will back you up..
4. lead a happy life without stress- try to do things ontime, and dont let the petty things make u stressed out..and being a perfectionist doesnt mean the whole world..its just adding a lot more stress than you ever think of.
5. the goverment should lessen the work time..and distibute the wealth of the country to the citizens..and, stop rising the prices of goods..esp the OIL!! its makes the middle class and the lower class suffer even more and make the rich becomes richer..just like the kapitalisme..
6. exam oriented concept should be abolished..where as let the students explore their interest without being judged..as long as it can contribute to the nation..be it arts or science..
7. make the doctors happy..cut out all the on calls.. and let them have some rest at night...<< i'm applying desperately for this>>
8. teachers shouldnt be scolded at if they couldnt make the school the best in the nation..its not totally their fault, right?
9. have a happy marriage/relationship..it will make u smile all day because u know someones waiting for you at home..
10. spend less, save more...money wouldnt buy happiness but without it certainly would cause chaos...huh?
11. be optimistic..and..if u're frustrated, let ur emotions out rather tahn being bottled up for only god knows for how long..u may explode..and there would be no turing back time..
12. and, last but not least...seek a professional help..if you think u cant control it anymore.. dont be afraid..prevent is better than cure..once its getting worse, its not easy to go back being normal..


~~ i, myself..do have some of the moody depression moments..but, thanks to the support that i have..i'm still fine.. ;-)

so..what's the solution??

Tiga juta rakyat Malaysia disahkan sakit mental
SUNGAI PETANI 22 Nov. - Sebanyak 16 peratus atau tiga juta daripada 26 juta penduduk di negara ini disahkan mengalami sakit mental dan jumlah ini adalah sesuatu yang membimbangkan, kata Menteri Kesihatan, Datuk Seri Dr Chua Soi Lek.

Katanya, penemuan data terbaru Kajian Kesihatan dan Morbiditi Kebangsaan bagi tahun 2006 mendapati kes gangguan mental di kalangan rakyat Malaysia meningkat sebanyak hampir 6 peratus berbanding kajian yang dijalankan 10 tahun lepas.

Beliau berkata, daripada jumlah itu, sebanyak 20.3 peratus adalah di kalangan kanak-kanak dan remaja berusia bawah 16 tahun.

“Antara faktor tekanan jiwa di kalangan remaja adalah kerana gagal mendapat keputusan yang baik dalam peperiksaan, tekanan daripada keluarga dan sekolah, serta tiada sokongan masyarakat,” kata beliau kepada pemberita selepas merasmikan Hari Kesihatan Mental Sedunia peringkat kebangsaan di sini hari ini.

Katanya, ada di antara murid sekolah tertekan kerana tidak mendapat semua A dalam peperiksaan dan kemudiannya mereka dihina dan dikatakan bodoh serta tidak berguna untuk hidup, jadi mereka mengambil jalan mudah untuk menyelesaikan masalah iaitu dengan membunuh diri.

Chua berkata, daripada jumlah itu juga, sebanyak 11.2 peratus adalah pesakit di kalangan orang dewasa dan 19.5 paratus di kalangan warga emas yang berusia melebihi 70 tahun.

“Masalah kesihatan mental tidak boleh dipandang ringan, beban penyakit itu memberi kesan kepada masyarakat dan negara, dan kos perubatan untuk pesakit mental adalah semakin tinggi, manakala pesakit pula sering tidak mendapatkan rawatan awal kerana percayakan rawatan bomoh,” kata beliau.

Kes membunuh diri juga didapati semakin meningkat dengan sebanyak 20 hingga 30 orang daripada setiap 100,000 rakyat Malaysia membunuh diri setiap tahun.

Beliau berkata, kementerian juga mengalami masalah kekurangan pakar psikitiari kerana stigma masyarakat untuk menjadi pakar jiwa.

“Ada orang kita menggelar pakar jiwa `doktor gila’ dan ini menyebabkan kursus perubatan psikitiari tidak begitu popular sehingga sekarang,” kata beliau.

Katanya, setakat ini, cuma terdapat 145 orang pakar psikitiari dan negara memerlukan lebih 300 pakar lagi dalam bidang itu untuk mencapai nisbah 50 pesakit bagi seorang psikitiari.

Chua berkata, sehubungan itu, kerajaan mahu usaha mempertingkat kesedaran mengenai kesihatan mental ditambah.

- Bernama



~~its my routine daily to read the newspaper from various webs..utusan,bharian,thestar,pravda,moscowtimes,hmetro...i always looking forward to know the real life out there...this morning, i surf the internet as usual and i came across this shocking but expected news from wwww.utusan.com.my.. the moment i read it, straight away, thousands of questions keep on popping inside my head..how can they PRECISELY asses the mental ilness?? eventhough i'm a medical student..i do know there are some criterias..in fact there's a lot.. be it selfish, inconsiderate, depress,jealousy, and lots more i must say..it's considered as the symptoms of mental illness..but, it all depends on the severity of the symptoms..so, that makes me wonder...what's the real base and the guideline of the research? maybe they took it from the counselors or the hospitals document..but, that shows how inaccurate the statistics shows, right? so, it means that AT LEAST 16 % of malaysian's citizen suffer from this silence killer....hmmmmmmmm...sigh again..maybe that explains how malaysian's citizen can do such gruesome killing of nurin ..or the bombing of altantuya's body..or the burning of his own mother in penang few days before..hmmmm...so, the goverment should think of the solution...it has to be back to the root of the problem back..we have to analyse..what triggers the mental illness..we have to prevent since childhood..we all know the makings of our personality starts from young..as early as 4 years old..or even less..so, who is responsible of this? of course its the family institution..but, how does the family affects the development of the offsprings? it goes back to the parents..and it goes back to the parents' experience during childhood..so, its a non ending cycle which we call it as viscious cycle..so, we have to do something that breaks this cycle..we, i mean all..we all have to participate in curbing this phenomenon..if we dont take any preventive measures. i'm not suprised one day our country will be called as the schizo country..so..how can we prevent it? i'll add it afterwards..i'm already late for my class..so gtg..

russian's rackazz..

it's 10.48..i'm struggling with my tounge trying to pronounce the russian words correctly as i'm right now memorising the story that i have written to be told to our lecturer..i wrote about my experience back then when i was in form 2..i almost lost my brother in that incident. it hit me hard..until now, vividly i remember the chronology of the accident...its hard to write it down in russian..if i really know how to write and of course pronounce the words properly,its a must to write down every details of it..however, that was just an if..to not mess up a lot with the words i've shortened my story to less than 200 words...its just like the upsr in primary school, huh? but, what can i say? it's my fault..i should have dedicated my time to learn the russian language which i find it more difficult than the anatomy..huhuhu..regrets are always there..right? hmmm....

bittersweet truth...housemanship..

Thursday November 22, 2007(the star)
Move to make sure all doctors have required skills

By AUDREY EDWARDS

PUTRAJAYA: Newly-qualified doctors will have to undergo two years' compulsory housemanship from next year.

Currently, they only have to do a year of housemanship.

Health Minister Datuk Seri Dr Chua Soi Lek, who announced the Cabinet decision yesterday, said the move was considered important to increase the knowledge, skills and experience of graduate medical officers.

“This will improve the quality of services and healthcare standards,” he said.

A rotation system of four months in six departments will be implemented. With the newest inclusion being the accident and emergency department, the rest are medical, paediatric, general surgery, orthopaedic, obstetrics and gynaecology.

“We have observed that in the past few years, about three to five per cent of graduate medical officers do not get full registration because they have weaknesses in knowledge or skills,” he told reporters before chairing his ministry’s post-Cabinet meeting.

“We cannot let this continue. We hope the move is seen as a positive one by future graduates and we are confident the rakyat (people) will support us.”

After the two-year housemanship, the doctors would have to serve their three years' compulsory service with the Government or its agencies, he said.

Dr Chua said the ministry would apply to the Government to place them under the U43 grade upon completing the two years' housemanship compared to the current U41. The U43 pay scale is RM500 more than U41.

He said the doctors would be able to pursue their specialist courses or Master’s after serving two years' compulsory service compared to the current situation whereby they can only apply to further their studies after three years.

About 1,200 local medical students graduate annually.

Dr Chua also announced the Cabinet’s decision to disallow the future setting up of private cord blood banks because while it was a new service with huge potential to treat specific diseases, there were still ethical issues to be scrutinised.

He said the existing centres would have to apply for a licence from the ministry within the next two months and would be registered under the Private Healthcare Facilities and Services Act 1998.



well..i must say, i wasnt delighted to hear about this...in addition to the meagre payment(people always think about money first nowadays) plus the mental torturing and not to forget the 24/7 working hours, it really made me feel like, i just want to be a student and enjoying my medical student life..no responsibility( just a little) ..no scolding..no backbitching....its too comfortable to let it passed..but, thinking of the positive side of it, it makes us more prepared to be a competent doctor and help out the rakyat..right?? ececececec..terbaik la pulok...heheheh
..so, i guess, by hook or by crook..we still have to do it no matter how terrible it is..perhaps, thinks could change and made it less horrible as it seems..
ps: alamak..if its 2 years, so, when should i get married??? adddoooiiiii...the pressure from my family is haunting me..help!!!!!

is it true? practically??

The Lovers of the Heart

In order to form a more perfect kiss, enable the mighty hug to promote to whom we please but one kiss.

Article 1:

Statement of Love: The Kiss


1. Kiss on the hand I adore you
2. Kiss on the cheek I just want to be friends
3. Kiss on the neck I want you
4. Kiss on the lips I love you
5. Kiss on the ears I am just playing
6. Kiss anywhere else lets not get carried away
7. Look in your eyes kiss me
8. Playing with your hair I can't live without you
9. Hand on your waist I love you to much to let you go

Article 2: The Three Steps

1. Girls: If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.
2. Guys If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.
3. Guys & Girls Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare
Article 3: The Commandments

1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard.
2. Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.
3. Thou shall kiss at every opportunity.
Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:

1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder
3. How cute they look when they sleep
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world
6. How cute they are when they eat
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while
8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth
11. How cute they are when they argue
12. The way her hand always finds yours
13. The way they smile
14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight
15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an hour later....
16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you"
18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you...
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry
20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't admit it)!
23. The way they say "I miss you"
24. The way you miss them
25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.


seriously?? i hope so....where's my prince charming? ;-P (feel like i want to marry right now..heheheheh)

songs for my loved ones

just enjoy!!

this is a break up song that i simply love

Reminiscing the past..back in jasin..

this is the very first time i'm officially blogging..i figured its time for me to have a new interest besides shopping and cooking...hehehe..
anyway, back to the headline above..as i was leisuring my time by surfing the internet reading the newspaper, listening to some awesome musics from imeem.com, i thought of browsing the friendster..i opened my profile...not much difference ever since the last summer..i dont feel like putting new pictures or changing the layout..maybe, friendster wasnt for me anymore..i think so..huhuh..however, while i was busy viewing my list of friends there, my eyes caught to the image of my late friends account- arwah ahadiah. she wasnt a close friend of mine. but, i must say, she's adorable.up until now, i'm sure folks back in jasin would still miss this happy- go -lucky girl. so, i clicked on her account..just curious if there's any changes or what eventhough its obvious it hasnt changed since 3 years before. yup..i was right..there's no changes..the last comment she received was on 2004....i read through the comments....unexpectedly, i saw this guy..which had caused me such a miserable life back in jasin..-soujiro..i dont mind writing his name here...hope so, he'll read this..hahaha..so, speaking about this crazy guy( oppss...still feel that u are crazy..) i started to know him in jasin..he was my classmate since form 4. initially, we were fine...at least i thought so.. however, the dramas all started when we were in form 5. to cut it short, almost everyone at school knew about our conflict..and, everyone knows he's some kind of antimaryam..plus antigirls...still. after all these years, i'm not sure why he hated me so much....but, from my point of view, he just doesnt like the way i bring myself....maybe its too girlie or what, i dont know...but, thats not the reason i'm writing here..heheehe..jeng..jeng..jeng.. only today i knew that he has a GIRLFRIEND!!!!!! hahahhahha.. i cant believe it!!! and his girlfriend looks as girlie as i am, plus, so manjeeeeeeeee......hahahhahaha
i burst out laughing!! SERIOUSLY???? still it was weird and funny.. how much he hated me before, and hated the COUPLE term, eventually, he surrendered..hahhahahah..u got served dude!! u see..how, the world is round(geographically sphere of course) and how, those that we hated so much ends up us getting it..and, now, i hope he regretted what he has done to me.. at least, he should know how grateful i am for him now..hohohohoh...but, really, i myself should take this as a lesson too..i should never ever hate or condemed anything because Allah S.W.T will always test us with what we did..