~~ forgive and forget~~

i've been trying to write something for the past few days..but, the ideas and the sentences just doesnt come out so smoothly..so, i ended up..typing..and deleting..and typing again.... for countless of times..there's a lot happened actually for the past few days..mostly made me satisfied and contented..but, also, still there are some unresolved matter which i still had not any clue how to solve it...

if you've read about my post "musuh dalam selimut..so it seems.." ,u'll know what actually happened last week..so, basically as anonymous this particular gemok wanted to be, eventually he confessed to us...coincidently, we already figured about him that evening, and shortly after that, he somehow felt like he should apologize to us.. the moment i knew he was the one, i wasnt mad at all.i was suprised myself!! maybe, i know that's how he says things, or maybe i'm more forgiving these days.. i think this owe to both...as i became more mature, i could feel that i'm becoming forgiving..i'll be angry and frustrated for a day or two the most, but eventually i'll give in..esp when they've apologized to me..and, after that the issue's resolved..and i'll try not to bring that up again..

i still remember my childhood..i was known by all how stubborn i was and how i was too unforgiving back then until even the tiny2 things that people do to me, vividly i remembered...my mum always said to me, there's no use of taking revenge to people..as time flies, i thought..actually, keeping the unforgiving feelings inside you will just make u bitter through out your life.. all you do, is resenting them and keep on saying.."what if..", which doesnt help in life..because there's no what ifs...what happens, happens..and all we can do is learn from the mistakes and cherish the precious moments..i somehow regret i didnt know this trick earlier..but, i'm grateful now...at least, i dont have to live in a resentful life for the coming years.... ;-)

so basically for you out there, you're forgiven already.. ;-)