~~ its so hurtful inside i cant think..

i'm lost with my words..i have so much to write..so much to tell.. but it just got stuck inside me..help me..please.. i really need to pour it down as i dont have anyone to confide in right now....as for that, i really have to write...to just say anything that have been bottled up in me..but, i just cant...i've been trying since forever but i'm failing...its just so heavy inside..i just want to unleashe the emotions in me..why it is so hard? :-(